After spending the last 2 years of my 14 year relationship and marriage feeling very lonely and unloved, what was the first thing I did when I separated from my now ex husband?
You guessed it, I signed up for Tinder and started swiping. Mainly to the left (that means i’m not interested) but the right swipe got a lot of interest as well. At first it was a lot of fun, it was like a smorgasbord of men and I could say yes or no in 1 second!
It was quite a powerful feeling. I got a lot of matches, which meant I got a lot of ego satisfaction. It was almost like a little ‘yes’ moment, I got a match, this must validate how amazing I am.
Except it really didn’t. For every right swipe and match, at least 1 out of 3 would be an immediate unmatch, meaning these guys swipe on every girl and when they get a match they decide if they like her or not. Such a good feeling for an insecure woman who has just come out of a relationship!
Most of the matches I got were interested in quick flings and nothing else, and this physically made me feel pretty worthless…
So I got 5 seconds of ego stroking when I got a match, that then resulted in me feeling worthless as a woman - just what I needed after coming out of a miserable marriage!
My obsession with Tinder was going on about the same time I met the women of Wyld Tribe and their amazing team. I was originally very Intrigued and possibly skeptical about this group of women who seemed to dance around with face paint and feathers while they did some drumming and singing. Obviously that was my first impression!
Then I started listening, watching and experiencing them as a group. The focus they put on respecting and honouring ourselves as women is inspiring and slightly humbling.
They reminded me that we don’t need men to define ourselves, which is what I was doing every time I swiped right. I want to make it clear, the Wyld Tribe women are not man haters or anti-men, they just believe in focusing on women as supporters of each other, in encouraging women to cheer each other on - rather than working against each other.
I’m still getting my head around Wyld Tribe, I still ask ALOT of questions, and the team are ridiculously patient with me!
All of their events, whether it’s Sistahood Circles, Wild Woman Weekend or even Sistahood Rising in November, focus on celebrating the feminine.
And that’s when I realised, sure I can swipe right as often as I want, but it doesn’t define me! It doesn’t mean I’m a queen because I got a match from the cute surfer, or I’m a sexy goddess because the tattooed guy messaged me!
I’m a queen and a goddess, because I’m a woman! For no other reason. Every morning I look in the mirror and tell myself, you are beautiful inside and out.
I still find myself getting that rush when I get a match, but I don’t let it define me as much as I used to. Now, I know that yes it’s a nice feeling but it doesn’t change who I am - and if they choose to unmatch me, that’s their loss, not mine!
So thanks Wyld Tribe, I’m still the new girl trying to work you out and understand my place amongst this amazing group of women, but I’ve stopped seeing my matches as what defines me, I’m a woman and I’m pretty awesome - if the guys don’t see it, that’s their loss! My loss is the time spent worrying about it which I have stopped doing - so I’m gaining confidence and extra time!
So what does this mean - I’m not anti Tinder or any of those dating apps, I’m just saying that it doesn’t define you - it doesn’t validate your self worth. You are in control of your self worth, but a few amazing women surrounding you definitely helps!